Tonight

Tonight, I am with the man that I loved and still love. But this man beside me is not the man that used to be with my side. He is another person in the same body.

I asked myself the forgiveness. To put on a straight face and be cold is something that is especially hard to do. I tried hard to pretend to myself that I have forgotten this man beside me. But the warmth and manly scent seethe through my heart. I might have been successful pretending to others. But still not to myself.

I knew for a fact that this relationship might fail but not this too soon. I even dreamed myself with this man some years ahead. Something that never foresee in my past relationships.

We loved too soon. And too soon it faded. And now, I have to let go.