Fail love for the Nth time

It's always late at night when I wondered why do I always fail relationships.

Almost everybody at my age are busy getting partners, being married and starting to build their families. In order to cope with the misery of being single, I just try to justify  myself that it is not the right time for me to find the love that I want to feel, experience and live with. But it makes me think what I have been doing wrong and been doing again and again. There must be.

I love myself. This is something I always knew, or not. But being in a relationship makes me an entirely different person. I can become carelessly selfless that I abandon myself just to please the other person.

I always fail relationships simply because I forget to love myself first.

Thinking of you

I could hardly deny
the feeling I felt for you
And I fear that my sanity
will lose all that remains with it

Thinking of you
can never say that I love you
Nor you can see the smile
when my heart remembers the love

Invisibility

If my invisibility...
affects the love that you might feel for me
i shall not hope of the love i wish 2 have
yet will leave u in the shadows of my heart..

The Glimpse

Every night
before I retire to sleep
I glimpse at your picture
and hoped
that even in my dream
I could feel your warm hug
that in reality
I would never have...

The distance

I could not but think

of the distance by the sea

The wind keeps tossing the leaves

of love i set for you

The ardent passion seethes

like the scorching heat of the eye of the sky

I long for the love

i prayed to the Universe

Has it been denied? or just been delayed..

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Dear Bhie,

I couldn't place the right words to put into writing for you. I just think of you this moment. I know that a single text message won't show how much I appreciate the companionship you brought me for the past months, but that's the only way I could think of.

I must be funny that I took the friendship seriously despite of the distance that separate us. But I did. I would not be tired of messaging you daily, if you have eaten already or how do you do... if that's the only way I can communicate with you.

I am still hoping of seeing you, even in my dreams. I miss you.